If i could run .
Not too far ,but far enough.
Not too far ,but far enough.
I would sit beside myself .
Where my thoughts are not as loud.
I would hold myself because ,i know what it is like to be in my own body .
Numb.
Numb.
Where i am paralyzed by fear and nobody knows.
Where my thoughts tear me down.
Where i am not good enough .
Where i am not pretty enough.
Where i feel alone .
Lost and a disappointment
Nobody knows what it is like to live in my skin .
All they see is the glam i portray.
I would look myself in the eyes and understand the pain .
I wouldn't shy away from the mirror like i normally do.
Because i am not in pain .
I am not broken .
I am not in the body that gives me nightmares.
Where i am not good enough .
Where i am not pretty enough.
Where i feel alone .
Lost and a disappointment
Nobody knows what it is like to live in my skin .
All they see is the glam i portray.
I would look myself in the eyes and understand the pain .
I wouldn't shy away from the mirror like i normally do.
Because i am not in pain .
I am not broken .
I am not in the body that gives me nightmares.
Beside myself .I can get to enjoy the sound of the birds.
Beside myself. I get to appreciate what i am without my head making me doubt my own thoughts.
Beside myself. I am free to be who i am and free to be who i am not.
Beside myself. I give myself reassurance. Because i now i am not alone.
Now i realise something that i had not realized before.
I have been inside my self as i thought these thoughts.
It felt as though i was beside myself .
When all i had done is silence the deathly thoughts.
Now i know to be myself i need to silence the voices and dare to dream .
Dare to be free.
It doesnt matter where i am or what has happened to me all that matters is,
I FIND THAT VOICE WITHIN MYSELF.
THE VOICE THAT WANTS THE BEST FOR ME,AND REACH TOWARDS IT
BECAUSE THAT IS THE VOICE THAT FREES ME AND ENABLES ME TO LIVE .
