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Wednesday, April 11, 2018

LOST AND LOOKING TO BE FOUND #ClinicalDepressionKenya


Begins with a frown,that ends in a smile.
And end's with a choice ,that i choose to amend.

Light as a feather. I spread my wings to fly.
Trying to loose myself . But if i do.
 I know i will loose it all.

I look nothing like what i feel. 
I miss me. The old me. The happy and free me.
I miss the real me before the black.
Before me. when im more than ok me.

They ask me are you okay? But what they really mean is are you over it yet!

What they dont know is i am a victim of my thoughts and they are louder than my will power. 

I am trapped in negativity.
Every thought is a battle every breath is a curse . I am loosing this battle and i am ok with it.

So i tell myself "Just this once" and i am back to where i was 1 gram ago.

 Light as a feather again.
Begins with a frown that ends in a smile.
This time i choose to fly.
Outside myself, I feel free . I feel happy .
I m happy. It feels like a sin to be this happy.
How can something this wrong make me feel alive again.

I still hear the thoughts. They never rest.
For now my urge to live is stronger than the urge to die.

One day i will feel this alive without my poison for i know .
If i dont control it .it will lead me straight to an early grave.
Where they will cry saying,"it wasnt her time yet."

N.H.I.F rescently started covering depression costs and this is testament to what is going on in our country .
A total of 1.9 million cases of depression where reported last year. Which is a 18% increase since 2005 
 A report done by World Health Organisation says close to 800000 people die annually due to suicide the second leading cause of death in 15-29 year olds.

 Depression ranges in seriousness from mild, temporary episodes of sadness to severe, persistent depression. Clinical depression is the more-severe form of depression, also known as major depression or major depressive disorder. It isn't the same as depression caused by a loss, such as the death of a loved one, or a medical condition, such as a thyroid disorder

Signs and symptoms of clinical depression may include:
  • Feelings of sadness, tearfulness, emptiness or hopelessness
  • Angry outbursts, irritability or frustration, even over small matters
  • Loss of interest or pleasure in most or all normal activities, such as sex, hobbies or sports
  • Sleep disturbances, including insomnia or sleeping too much
  • Tiredness and lack of energy, so even small tasks take extra effort
  • Reduced appetite and weight loss or increased cravings for food and weight gain
  • Anxiety, agitation or restlessness
  • Slowed thinking, speaking or body movements
  • Feelings of worthlessness or guilt, fixating on past failures or self-blame
  • Trouble thinking, concentrating, making decisions and remembering things
  • Frequent or recurrent thoughts of death, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts or suicide
  • Unexplained physical problems, such as back pain or headaches

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