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A blog about factors that affect the lives of women and where you can find inspiration.
The Un edited side of "life ".Where there is beauty in imperfection and knowing that through the support and wisdom we share with each other .We will help improve not only our own lives but the lives of generations to come.

Monday, July 1, 2024



Introducing your young kids to a new partner can be a delicate process. Here are some tips to help make it smoother:

1. Timing

Make sure your relationship is serious and stable before introducing your partner to your kids. Children can become attached quickly, so it's important to be sure of the relationships future.

2. Talk to Your Kids First 

Prepare your children by talking to them about your new partner before they meet. Explain who they are and why they're important to you.

3. Keep it Casual

The first meeting should be casual and in a comfortable, neutral environment like a park or a casual meal. This helps reduce pressure and allows everyone to interact naturally.

4. Be Patient

Give your kids time to adjust. They may have mixed feelings and need time to get used to the idea of your new partner.

5.Encourage Interaction 

Plan activities that allow your children and your partner to interact and get to know each other. Games, outings, or shared interests can help build a connection.

6.Respect Their Feelings

 Acknowledge and validate your children’s feelings, whether they are positive or negative. They need to feel heard and understood.

7. Take It Slow

Gradually increase the amount of time your partner spends with your kids. Rushing the process can lead to resistance and discomfort.

8. Communicate 

Keep an open line of communication with your partner about how the introductions and interactions are going, and be ready to make adjustments as needed.

By taking these steps, you can help ensure that the introduction goes smoothly and sets a positive foundation for your partner's relationship with your children.

Monday, April 29, 2024


Self-discovery is a lifelong journey of growth, reflection, and transformation. It's about peeling back the layers of our being, unraveling our true essence and purpose in life. 
It's an expedition of introspection, exploration, and growth that leads to profound understanding and acceptance of oneself. Exploring the depths of our thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and experiences. It's about questioning our assumptions, challenging our limitations, and embracing our vulnerabilities.
Breaking free of conditioning and societal expectations to uncover the essence of who we truly are

In our daily lives, finding moments of tranquility can seem like an elusive dream. However, amidst the chaos, there lies a profound opportunity to find inner peace. 

True peace isn't merely the absence of turmoil; it's a state of harmony and contentment that originates from within. Here's a guide to embarking on the journey to find peace within yourself:

The path to inner peace begins with self-acceptance. Embrace yourself fully, flaws and all. Recognize that imperfection is part of the human experience, and it doesn't diminish your worth. Practice self-compassion and let go of harsh self-judgment. Embracing who you are opens the door to inner peace.

Then there is mindfulness. The art of being fully present in the moment without judgment.Which truly  sometimes feel impossible to do. 
It requires you to pay attention to your thoughts, feelings, and sensations with curiosity and kindness. You can try  meditation, deep breathing, or simply being aware of your surroundings, you can anchor yourself in the present moment and find peace amidst the chaos around you.

Release.Holding onto resentment and grudges only weighs you down and disrupts your peace of mind. 
Which is another tough one.
Let go of past grievances and practice forgiveness, not necessarily for others' sake but for your own well-being. Forgiveness doesn't mean condoning the actions of others; it means freeing yourself from the burden of anger and resentment.

Gratitude is another  powerful tool for finding inner peace. Take time each day to reflect on the things you're grateful for, no matter how small. Whether it's a beautiful sunset, a kind gesture from a friend, or the simple pleasure of a warm cup of tea, cultivating gratitude shifts your focus from what's lacking to what's abundant in your life.

Another way is by going into Nature. What is natural. 
Nature has a remarkable ability to soothe the soul and restore inner peace. Spend time outdoors . Connecting with the natural world can help quiet the mind, reduce stress, and foster a sense of inner calm.

Nurture Your Spirituality as well by  connecting with something greater than yourself, nurturing your spirituality can give you a sense of purpose and meaning that transcends the challenges of daily life.

Taking care of yourself is essential for maintaining inner peace. Make self-care a priority by nourishing your body with healthy food, laughter,getting regular exercise, prioritizing sleep, and engaging in activities that bring you joy and relaxation.Self-care isn't selfish—it's necessary for your overall well-being.

In a world filled with noise and distractions, finding peace within yourself is worth it. Remember, true peace comes from within .it's a state of being that you carry with you wherever you go.

Self-discovery is not about attaining perfection but rather about embracing our imperfections with compassion and understanding. It's about recognizing that our flaws and mistakes are integral parts of our journey, offering valuable lessons and opportunities for growth. By cultivating self-compassion and self-forgiveness, we learn to celebrate our uniqueness and accept ourselves unconditionally.

Be aware of your thoughts, feelings, and behaviors, as well as the world around us. Mindfulness practices enable us to observe ourselves without judgment, fostering a deeper understanding of our inner landscape. As we become more attuned to our authentic desires and values, we gain clarity about the path that aligns with our true purpose.

Also accept that Along the way we change. People change.Embracing change requires us to step out of our comfort zones, confront our fears, and take bold leaps into the unknown. By embracing uncertainty and embracing change, we open ourselves up to new possibilities and experiences that enrich our lives.

While self-discovery is a personal journey, it's also about forging meaningful connections with others. Through authentic relationships, we learn more about ourselves, mirror our strengths and weaknesses, and receive support and guidance along the way. By nurturing healthy connections with like-minded individuals, mentors, or communities, we expand our perspective.

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Thursday, January 11, 2024



I must say it has been a while since I wrote anything. To be honest I didn't see the point at which I would begin to write again . 

For me it's not just about churning out content for you to consume it's about speaking to you from my soul.  For a while my soul was silent . It was learning, healing living and experiencing what it was meant to experience . 

What a year it has been so much growth . So many lessons. Healing, falling apart,loss and finally I arrive at the point where I can share with you .

For a time the phrase,"die of self kept ringing" in my mind . I was troubled what did it mean! What was on the other side of that! How do I get there, without taking too much a beating and,could I just wakeup . Having miraculously learnt a lesson the easy way.

Well that didn't happen . Last year the essence of who I am was stretched beyond what I new possible. (Podcast episodes loading so subscribe...)  I learnt valuable lessons in motherhood, love,family ,my own strength. But most importantly I learnt resilience. The importance and the beauty of persistence.

Imagine waking up. Getting dressed, leaving the house and not knowing where you are going,but you just keep walking . 

Uncertain about who you are . What is important and what isn't. Trying to find meaning and not finding anything. You look at yourself in the mirror and can't recognise who you are. Can't recognise who the person you have been is .

You even don't know what to expect on the other side or if you will make it to the other side of what it is your going through.I went through a shedding of habits,thoughts,patterns,relationships and breaking of the ego. 

It's one thing to be able to share a lesson after you have gone through it but as you are deep in the thick of growth it's hard . When you are the source of strength and can't find the strength that you need! 

Well here I am now. Standing after a full season of shedding. A season where I didn't see how I could get to the other side because my own mind couldn't give me the peace I needed . Because I was fighting against the growing pains instead of going through .

In life the only way out is through ...

 A lesson that was hit hard and allowed me to see things I have been refusing to see . When the biggest supporter of untold lives of women passed away . A woman who cheered me on. Kept asking when I will release new content. The woman who gave me hope when I couldn't see a way through. The woman sho showed me you can raise your child on your own and succeed. A woman who loved my daughter like her own . A woman who listened to me rant and cry on her dining room table . A woman who genuinely cared . 

You know it's easy to be the bad guy in other people's stories . It's also easy to recieve. But giving of yourself selflessly is the toughest thing you can ever do. It is thankless . But because it's who you are programmed to be it's what you must do. 

 It's even harder when there's no one there on the other side to help you through but yourself. However if you can be a light to someone else . Do it because that's the light that will allow them to be an even bigger light to someone else . For me her light allowed me to shine.

Don't fear change .Don't fight change. Allow yourself to go through it so that you can be the butterfly you are meant to be .

Sunday, July 16, 2023


Sinners judging sinners for sinning differently
I had a conversation with someone about the importance of speaking your mind but doing so was a long conversation. 

You see imagine going your whole life just agreeing to everything and not speaking up when you need to .
You then get to a point where you get tired of bottling it up so you start to speak your mind . Irregardless of how it affects anyone. Your argument being," nobody cared when I was hurting silently. So I shouldn't care if anyone doesn't like what I have to say" .

Makes sense . It really does. Almost couldn't argue with that. Except. Making people feel bad using words cuts deeper than anything else in this world.
 I love words. That's why I write. It holds weight. So it's important to be careful of the words you use.

So I asked why didn't you speak up all your life why now? They said, because I was affraid of saying the wrong thing and getting scolded for it. Coz it happened alot when I was younger. I was always told off . So I stayed quiet........let that sink in!!!

Without knowing this person had ended up doing the same thing they disliked being on the receiving end of. 
This happens alot in life. We tend to end up doing the things we fear, the things we hate, the things we judge other people for doing. Simply because it's an area we need to heal/learn from. So that we can move on. If we don't we will repeat the pattern and harm not only ourselves but those around us as well .

Thursday, July 6, 2023


At some point i woke up and said I was done with the nairobi feminist because I was naive to believe it had reached its end.

So many people asked me why. And to be honest I don't think I had a valid answer. Part of me felt I've done enough. I've said enough . I've helped enough . I've had enough. I'm not enough!

Truly selfish reasons if you ask me. But the thing about being a creative. You can only create art when you are inspired and I lacked that for a while. I lost the plot as someone once told me. That was the truth I was lost. I had strayed far away from why I do what I do and why it's so important to me.  Mostly because I had so much going on.
Funny thing is in all of that I forgot I was going against the grain. I was forcing my body,soul and mind to do things it didn't want to do. And it forced me to stop and listen to the voice within.
I must say what I heard made me feel very apologetic. I heard the words," who said you can just stop! The gift wasn't given to you . To use as you please but to serve . To help . To inspire . To teach . To comfort. It doesn't belong to you it belongs to those you help . Your just the vessel and if you stop what is your worth!

And I tell you I was shocked and humble and humiliated at the same time . I had forgotten we are not placed on this earth to just exist for ourselves . But to be a light to others and in that you have to die of self . Loose all selfishness . Realize that you are only as important as the impact you have on others. Create a little heaven on this dark Earth so that others can begin to want to see the real thing .

Live , learn, laugh , love and never stop dreaming .If you dream it it can happen. If you put in the work from the lessons learnt 


In our lives we all have moments where we want to be at peace within ourselves. However, it seems impossible. It feels like we are stuck and unable to cross that barrier to heal and find peace. I've been at that point of stickiness severally. However what I have learn in those moments is something I repeat regularly on here.  When you go against the grain. When you go against the very fibre of your body, mind and soul.Your  body will not allow you to proceed until you rectify the course of your direction.

We all have a destination we are heading to. To get there we have to realise the reason for our existence, let go of all that holds us back. That is remember you came into this earth with nothing. You will leave with nothing. So absolutely nobody  and nothing is more important than the soul that lives within you.Dont sell yourself short.
Don't allow yourself to be fooled into thinking your past, your present , your future is of key value. Think in this moment what am I doing that gives me peace and shows love and kindness to those around me . Especially  to the strangers you meet, the orphans and the widows.

To find peace you have to look back at all the moments that you have pain / sharp knives in your back allow them to speak . Don't silence them say those things outloud and release the power they have had over you by saying. I will not let you ruin another moment of my life any more.

Thursday, April 13, 2023


If I could choose a place to start. It would be at the point where the end is in sight. The point where all the moments of sheer heartbreak, tears ,frustration, fatigue no longer feel like that. Where those moments feel worth it. Where those last few steps get you to the finish line and you get a good cry because it was all worth it and you wouldn't change anything. 

Completion. The feeling of being complete.

When I started this blog. I knew I wanted to share what I have learnt and what I was learning with other people. Now between thinking about it and actually starting it took me months. Mostly because of the amount of vulnerability involved in sharing your story with the world. 
A mom at 21! Terrified!!!
Looking back I see my strength.
I see the pain , I see the joy.
Most importantly I see that what was meant to break me. Gave me purpose , gave me strength. Gave me hope.
I wouldn't change a thing looking back 10 years later I am truly grateful for every moment. Every experience . Every high and every low.

My brother told me .it's always better to have a tough start and a happy ending than the reverse of that. I have held on to that and seen it unravel.
I have shared my story with all . Hundreds of thousands of people. Across the globe I see countries reading my words on my stats that I dream of visiting. I get emails and messages and I am grateful that I had to learn something inorder to share it because, my lessons travel the world and open doors for me to get there in person.

So what I would like to say is . Don't give up. Don't regret, Learn your lesson and trust that Jesus has a plan for it all .

Thankyou every person who has been on this. Journey with me.


Have you ever been mad because you, wanted to stop someone from making a mistake. However, they still make the mistake and then on top of that . They get mad at you for pointing it out and make you the Villain!

What if it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them.
You volunteered information when they where not ready to deal with it .Instead of them dealing with it .They walk themselves straight into what you where trying to do.

The question is what was your intention when you where telling them. 
Two, how do you think they will react to the information.
Three, do they need to know.
Four, are you going to be ok with what they choose to do with the information.

The most important lesson I've learnt is always ask before you give your opinion or information. Consent is key.

Sometimes the people who don't know all the details are the loudest to speak but what comes out of their mouth is out of the abundance/ lack of within.

Also learn to mind your own business and stay out of other people's business because it has a way of coming back to bite you in the ass.
Deal with you and only you.
You can only control what you do and how you react and for those reason always choose to be better.

Tuesday, April 11, 2023


I can be very opinionated and during a therapy session I was challenged to listen. Not just listen be there, be attentive . Be silent  and don't listen to respond but to truly hear what the other person is saying.
To be understood and to understand where a person is coming from  is one of the most amazing gifts you can give.

Communication is key. The lack their of causes a distance that can only be filled with understanding.

The human in us sometimes want to try fix, to save , to improve , to rescue.
However, some people need to hit rock bottom for them to truly want to be helped .
Sometimes we have to learn the lesson .
Sometimes we have to let them learn without us interfering in their process. 

I was once asked, " Who told you that you where created to specifically be their savior. You are only hindering their learning process ."

Word I can only now share with you and hope that you understand sometimes all you need to do is be quiet . Be present . Be there to just listen and do nothing else 

Tuesday, March 7, 2023


See my previous post signs you are dating a narcissist
More often than not I have been asked as a feminist what is my take on mother's who have been physically, verbally and  emotionally abusive to their children. Women who are narcissistic in nature and scar their children for life.

And in most cases the follow up question is always do you blame those raised by such mother's for growing up to hate women themselves.

Let me break down to you what that could be like.. Imagine being a little child in a house full of chaos and love .High highs and lows lows . Constant fighting from parents and to make it worse you are forced to pick a side. A home where the woman provides and constantly belittles you. Reminds you how worthless you are and tells the children how bad you are. Or a home where nothing you ever do is good enough . All that is seen is where you fall short. A mother that calls your success from hard work a result of prostitution . And sees nothing wrong with such accusations. A home where you are discouraged from achieving your goals and reminded when you aren't as successful as those around you. 

A home where you are constantly reminded you are inadequate. A home where you are turned against eachother
A woman loved by all outside the home. A perfect and upright God fearing woman  but a source of pain with in it . The perfect narcissist shows love and kindness only to be harsh and cruel the next. Almost as if it's two different personalities living in one person. To the point you would rather starve than go be seen eating food she bought . A woman that sees you as sin and judges you harsher than even God himself.
Imagine being driven into depression/suicide by the same woman who gave birth to you . The worst part being . The cycle continues onto the next generation.


Narcissists project their own fears, mistakes and short comings towards you. 
A cruel person is a cruel person irregaress of gender.Children who grow up with a narcissistic parent tend to suffer from at least some of the following as children and as adults: anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, self-doubt, self-blame, indecision, people-pleasing tendencies, difficulties with emotional intimacy, and codependent relationships.

One thing about a narcissist is their monumental weakness in the narcissist is the failure to look internally and flesh out what needs to be worked on within themselves. They constantly look for faults in the lives of other people.

How to Outsmart a Narcissist.
Separate yourself to cut off their narcissistic supply.
Take time to heal.
Take responsibility for your part in a conflict.
React with empathy and respect.
Act unresponsive around them.
Disengage from their conversations.
Set and enforce clear boundaries.

To end this blog I would like to say if you have gone through a hard time as a result of a loved one . I want you to know that you are not alone. You are loved . You are appreciated. You are not a burden . You have value . You are beautiful .  You are an amazing human being. You are worth it all and although you are not where you want to be you will get there don't lose faith.
Just keep swimming (in Dorys voice)

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Sunday, March 5, 2023


I share this post as a tribute to the ongoing #dontexcuseabuse campaign 

Sources:Gender Violence Recovery Centre kenya, sanctuary for abused,
children of parents narcissistic tendancies

The below signs are from sanctuary for the Abused written by licenced Psychologists link is above. The signs listed apply  to both men a women

As long as you want better for yourself you can achieve anything.Their is no need to suffer alone in silence if there is someone/organisations willing to help .Don't go through this nightmare alone someone does care for you and will help you ..If the signs are visible don't wait till you have broken ribs! or worse.If in kenya click the gender violence recovery link to get help. ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO GET HELP

Below are some of the signs

Unemployed or Underemployment.
Underemployment is not necessarily an objective phenomenon; it may be the subjective response to the man's failing to meet his own expectations. Educational and occupational attainment frequently is less than wife's, such status discrepancies are painful even should the husband bring home a higher salary.

Emotional Dependency.
Emotional dependency on the spouse is usually not recognized or understood, but is expressed through demands for constant reassurance and gratification. This may explain in part why spouse abuse often begins during wife's pregnancy.

High Investment in Marriage.
Wants to preserve marriage at any cost and will go to great lengths to do so. In the event of separation or divorce, tends to immediately replace lost spouse with a new partner.


  • Violates your personal space.
  • Intimidates you by getting too close.
  • Touches, pinches, grabs you against your will.
Quick Involvement.

  • Sweeps you off your feet.
  • Love at first sight.
  • "You're the only one for me."
  • "I have to have you." "I think about you all day / all night"
  • Desperately pressures you for a commitment so you're engaged, sleeping together in less than 6 months or living together in less than 12 months.
Controlling Behavior.

  • Controls where you go, what you do, with whom and for how long.
  • Controls money and money decisions, won't allow you to share expenses or refuses to work and won't share expenses.
  • Protective to the point of controlling.
  • Says he's angry when you're "late" because he "cares."
  • Takes your car keys, won't let you go to church, work, or school. Won't let you drive.
Jealousy.Angry about your relationship with other men, women, coworkers, even children and family. This insecurity and possessiveness causes him to accuse you of flirting or having affairs, to call frequently or drop by to check up on you, even check your car mileage or have you followed.

Abusive Family of Origin.
Was physically, sexually or emotionally abused as a child or witnessed spouse abuse. He sees violence as normal behavior, a natural part of family life.

Low Self-Esteem.

  • Guards his fragile sense of self by acting tough and macho.
  • Pumps up his fragile sense of self with sex.
  • Imagines you threaten his manhood.
  • Damages your self-esteem, demeans your growth, demands your silence.
Alcohol/Drug Abuse.

  • Abuses alcohol/drugs, tries to get you drunk, berates you if you won't get high.
  • He may deny his drug problem and refuse to get help. Don't think you can change him or that alcohol/drug abuse causes violent behavior. They are two separate problems.
Difficulty Expressing Emotions.

  • Unable to identify feelings and express them directly and appropriately.
  • He may say he's "hurt" and sulk when he's really angry.
  • He displaces anger at his boss or himself onto you.
  • Blame Shifts; he's never responsible for what happens.
Blames Others for His Feelings or Problems.

  • Believes others are out to get him and he's the victim.
  • Blames you for everything that goes wrong.
  • Will say "You make me mad," "You make me happy," "I can't help getting angry" to manipulate you.
  • Holds you responsible for his suicidal or self-abusive or sexual- acting-out behavior.
Quick temper, unable to handle frustration without getting angry, easily insulted. Will "rant and rave" about minor things like traffic tickets or request to do chores.

 Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.
Seems like two different people with mood swings from nice to explosive. May change his behavior around the guys. May be very sociable around others and only abusive with you.

Unrealistic Expectations.

  • Very dependent on you for all his physical and emotional needs ("You're all I need").
  • Expects you to live up to his ideals of a perfect partner, mother, lover, friend.
Rigid Gender Roles.

  • Expects a woman to stay at home, serve and obey him.
  • Gets angry if you don't fulfill his wishes and anticipate his needs.
  • Speaks for you.
  • He thinks it's OK for men to keep women "in line" by force or intimidation.
  Rigid Religious Beliefs.
 Justifies rigid sex roles and the physical/emotional/sexual domination of women and children with strict or distorted interpretations of scripture.

Disrespect for Women in General.

  • Ridicules and insults women, sees women as stupid and inferior to men
  • Tells sexist jokes ("dumb blond", "PMS" jokes).
  • Refers to women in derogatory or non-human terms ("babe", "chick", "fox", "bitch") or as specific parts of anatomy
  • Sees women only as sex-objects, uses prostitutes or has affairs
  • De-values women's accomplishments and work, acts like women are second-class citizens.
Emotional Abuse.

  • He may ignore your feelings, continually criticize you and call you names like "fat, ugly, stupid"
  • curse and yell at you
  • belittle your accomplishments
  • manipulate you with lies, contradictions, and crazy-making tactics
  • humiliate you in private or public
  • Uses sarcasm and says it's 'humor.'
  • regularly threaten to leave or tell you to leave, keep you awake or
  • wake you up to argue or verbally abuse you.

  • An acquaintance rapist will try to separate you from others to a secluded spot.
  • Batterers will try to keep you from working or attending school, move you to a rural area, restrict your use of the phone or car.
  • He'll try to cut you off from men, women, family and children by saying "You're a whore," "You're a lesbian," "You're tied to your parent's apron strings," or "You're spoiling the kids."
  Reliance on Pornography.

  • Rapists, child molesters and men who sexually abuse or rape their wives or other women often have an abundance of pornographic literature, internet bookmarks, magazines, or videos.
  • They may want to involve you in their interest by photographing you or taking you to pornographic movies or shops.
  • They may coerce you into doing things sexually you are uncomfortable with or wouldn't normally do and then say that you "liked it" or "asked for it."
Sexual Abuse.

  • Refuses platonic relationship if dating
  • uses "playful" force in sex
  • uses sulking, sympathy or anger to manipulate you into having sex
  • emotionally coerces or forces you to have sex or hurts you during sex
  • demands sex when you're scared, ill, tired or
  • starts to have sex when you're asleep, drunk, or unable to give consent.
Cruelty to Animals, Children, or Others.

  • Teases, bullies, abuses or harshly punishes animals, children, elderly, disabled weaker people or other women.
  • Is insensitive to others' pain.
  • Tortures or kills pets to feel powerful or hurt you.
  • Threatens to kidnap the children if you leave.
  • Punishes or deprives the children when angry at you.
  • Punishes the children for behavior they're incapable of (whipping a 2 year-old for wet diapers).
Past Violence.
Any history of violence to "solve" problems. Justifies hitting or abusing women in the past, but "they made me do it." Friends, relatives or ex-partners say he's abusive (Batterers beat any woman they're with. You didn't cause it and you can't control it or cure it).

Fascination with Weapons.
Plays with guns, knives, or other lethal weapons, threatening to "get even" with you or others. Tells you he knows how to kill someone and/or how to hide bodies; or that he has 'friends' who will 'take care of you'.

Threats of Violence.

  • Any threats of physical force to control you or make you do something should be taken seriously.
  • He may threaten to hurt you or your family. Non-batterers do not say things like "I'll kill you" or "I'll break your neck" or "I'm out to get you now."
  • Posts threats or defamatory material about you on the internet.
  Breaking or Striking Objects.

Punishes you by breaking loved objects, terrorizes you into submission (If he doesn't want you to be a student, he may destroy school books or break lamps). Non-batterers do not beat on tables, punch holes in walls, destroy furniture, throw objects at you to threaten you. The message is "You're next! You're just an object I can control and I can break you like our china."

 Any Force During an Argument.

Hurts you in anger or in "play", pushing , shoving, pulling, grabbing you by the collar, holding you down, restraining you from leaving the room, slapping, punching, hitting, kicking, or burning.

Friday, March 3, 2023


I've been seeing a rise in people wanting to embrace feminine energy . And using feminine energy to get your man to provide for you and alot more and I thought I would find a way to help you my readers understand what feminine energy is so that you don't get mis guided into something someone is preaching without having all the facts 

So before I get into what I have learnt I would like to take us back to the story of creation . God decided to make woman because the man was lonely and he also wanted to give the traits a man lacked to woman.  ( Book to read king's daughter by Diana hagee ) see my post on before you Cary on with this post for more depth. .........

He took adam's rib and made woman meaning we where created with both male and feminine energy. Within us think of it as the perfect balance like Ying and yang for it to flow it must balance.

However over time we have had to adapt many roles in life and we tent to Lose our balance.

Society expects us to be the best cooks in the kitchen, the best mothers to our children, sexual goddesses in the bedroom, and be excellent with our finances and look good while doing it with the perfect body shape ,hair, nails and outfit to match.
All while climbing the ladder of success – wearing high heels, no less! It’s exhausting. 
I think it's time we honor our own path. It’s as simple as that. Stop buying into the lie that women are “supposed to” . Throw out any unrealistic expectations you may have as a result of what American culture has told you about being a woman. Just be you.

The Divine Feminine is the feminine aspect of the divine power that connects and binds the Earth together. In other words, it is the goddess energy that exists within all of us. Many ancient cultures have a Divine Feminine concept. The Egyptians had Isis, the Greeks had Aphrodite, and the Hindus have Shakti. Aspects of the Divine Feminine can be found in almost all ancient and modern belief systems.

The Divine Feminine is often associated with fertility, creativity, and intuition. Tapping into this energy can help heal the mind, body, and soul of women in addiction recovery.

To start, let’s turn to the dictionary. Divine has many definitions, but the one that stands out is “supremely good, heavenly, Godlike.” Feminine also has several meanings, but this one seems the most appropriate: “the embodiment or conception of a timeless or idealized feminine nature.” Let these two definitions roll around your head for just a moment. Remember, we are talking about the spiritual aspect of what it means to be human. Understanding the Divine Feminine is a tall order! Here is a list of qualities that describe this sacred energy:

Action is oriented to the experience of joy rather than an outcome
Emotional strength
Seeks self-mastery but is more concerned with sacrificing for the greater good
Extroverted, open
Vulnerable and nurturing
Wants to “be” rather than “do”
Gentleness, sensitivity
Defines success by relationships
Concerned with creativity
Makes decisions based on intuition
Focused on the emotional world and the inner being

The Divine Feminine can also get out of harmony. When it does, these characteristics go to an extreme end of the spectrum. If a man or woman does not properly channel their femininity, they can become codependent, overly emotional, irrational, sacrificial to their own detriment, disorganized, confused, and lost. This results in dysfunctional relationships and contributes to mental health issues like bipolar disorder, constant burnout, a lack of productivity, a loss of self-worth, a “damsel in distress mentality,” and the inability to complete projects.


Menstruation is a cyclical process, as are the phases of the Moon — from new moon to waning crescent. Little wonder, then, that poets, philosophers, and scholars have, over the centuries, drawn parallels between the two, suggesting that they might be connected.

The mystique of the Moon and that of female bodies — at a time when medicine was in its infancy — led Greek philosopher Aristotle to claim, in the 4th century before the common era. Age-old parallels between the menstrual cycle and the phases of the moon have likely also led to some females referring to their periods as “moon cycles” to this day. 

Popular belief and many works of literature suggest that there may be some synchronicity between menses and the phases of the Moon.

That may be based on the similarity of duration between menstrual cycles and lunar cycles.

One full revolution of the Moon around the Earth takes 27 days, 7 hours, and 43 minutes. A moon phase cycle, during which the amount of Moon surface that we are able to see from Earth waxes and wanes, takes 29.5 days.

The length of menstrual cycles can be in the range of 25–30 daysTrusted Source, with the median duration of a menstrual cycle being 28 days.

One 1986 study — which Sung Ping Law, from the Department of Gynecology at the Canton Traditional Chinese Medical College in Guangzhou, conducted — did seem to find a link between menstrual and lunar cycles.

The research, which appears in the journal Acta Obstetricia et Gynecologica ScandinavicaTrusted Source, studied the cycles of 826 female participants, aged 16–25 years, over “4 lunar months in different seasons.”

The study concept, the author writes, “was based on the concept of traditional Chinese medicine that human physiological rhythms display synergism with other natural rhythms.

Women’s monthly menstrual cycle is a mirror twin of the lunar cycle. No matter our age, what developmental phase of life we are in, whether we bleed every month or not, whether we have had a hysterectomy or not, the Moon is embodied within the physical and energetic core of every woman. Together the Womb and the Moon create a woman’s natural rhythm of life.

In previous posts I have shared the monthly cyclical rhythm of La Luna and the wisdom embedded within it. Like a cosmic life-coach, each month the Moon invites us into a rhythm of visioning and dreaming, planning and gestating, emergence and growth, action and manifestation, reflection and rest. Each phase of the Moon coaches us in the art of living; inviting us to create a magnum opus from our lives.

Each phase of the Moon is also embedded within our wombs. Energetically speaking, the New Moon is the phase of menstruation, the Waxing Moon is the pre-ovulation phase, the Full Moon is the time of ovulation, and the Waning Moon is the pre-menstrual phase of the month. The Moon is - metaphorically, energetically, and cosmically - in you.



The menstrual cycle is a series of natural changes in hormone production and the structures of the uterus and ovaries of the female reproductive system that makes pregnancy possible. The ovarian cycle controls the production and release of eggs and the cyclic release of estrogen and progesterone. The uterine cycle governs the preparation and maintenance of the lining of the uterus (womb) to receive an embryo. These cycles are concurrent and coordinated, normally last between 21 and 35 days, with a median length of 28 days, and continue for about 30–45 years.

My daughter just turned 10 and was learning reproduction and her homework was for me to explain to her how babies are made and to explain the female reproductive cycle.

First things first . We had this conversation before very vaguely it started from a bird delivering a baby to the door . To a seed growing in my belly and coming out vaginally ( because I had explained to her about a vagina) but now I had to explain to her in depth.

A part of me morned a little because she's now clearly not my tiny princess but a pre teen as she likes to remind me. She's excited about becoming a teenager and getting her period. 
My first reaction was honey there's nothing exciting about your period especially because or cramping and I felt my words start to become negative so I took a deep breath and told her to let me think about how to explain it all .

Why you ask. Well I'm from the generation where sex was called 'bad manners' . Where your mother danced around the topic and avoided it for you to learn about most of the basics in school. Where you are told it is your secret and nobody should know you are on your period . Whereboys are encouraged to explore their sexuality but women are told to hide in shame not even look or touch themselves. Also my Muslim back ground where you are considered unclean.

So you can imagine I had to choose to break the cycle and approach the subject with love. Match her excitment , educate and still let her know that sexual assault and rape is also a reality.

About a week before . The country had been shocked with a senior government official walked into parliament in a white suit stained with period blood. See she wanted to create awareness and that she did. Sparked a debate and a conversation after being asked to leave parliament.
Outrage how dare she!

I read a quote that said, "Tradition is peer pressure from dead people."  And I thought what truth. We should be proud of our heritage but we should also know that we are living in different times. The old rules can't apply in an era where our experiences are different than those experienced by our forefather's/mother's.

We are the new generation and we need to choose to raise the next Generation loving everything that makes them feminine and teach our boys to champion for women's rights.

It starts with us as mothers and if we don't change the thought processes of our children when they are young we will have the same shame and patriarchal society we hate now.

See my next post on how the woman's cycle is linked to the moon and about how to embrace your devine feminine energy.


I really don't want to. I don't feel like it . Let me just forget about it all together!  And find something else to do instead! It doesn't have to be this way! It's too much work! Run away!
We try  outrun the things we know we well to do . Thinking if we avoid it long enough maybe it will go away . Sometimes it's fear. Sometimes we really don't know how to get it done. Sometimes it feels like an uphill battle. Sometimes it's just the fear failure .
It reminds me of the story of jonah and the whale. He tried to run and endup stuck in a whale having to face the fact that he can't out run his destiny. And was submarined to his destination to do what it was he was meant to do.
Procrastination is hindering yourself from achieving your goal . Why stop yourself why be your own hindrance to success . Be your greatest cheer leader . Let your within be the force that helps you move forward. 

The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered, all because someone was too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry out their dream.

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