A LETTER TO WOMEN PART 2
As a middle child in a family of 5 girls where my father was Muslim, my mother a Christian. We were told to choose which faith we wanted to follow.
I later chose Christianity and accepted the Lord as my Savior. However I always wanted to be different I wanted to be glamorous and enjoy the perks of going out partying,traveling and living the life I .saw and wanted to have for myself and over the years I lived that life thinking it was something I really wanted however it wasn't fulfilling it wasn't everything It was painted out to be.
Deep down I knew I was going to do big things I was going to do something I loved doing and I was going to be successful at it. however choosing the right path to get to where I wanted to be was harder than I anticipated and still is nothing comes easy you have to know what you want and constantly work your way up that path and still believing that even in the wake of all disaster it will happen.
There is a constant battle between knowing who you are and living who you are and that is something I think a lot of women young or old live with.
I recently read that "acceptance of one's self is the essence of the moral problem and the acid test of one's whole outlook on life. That I feel the beggar, that I forgive the insult that I love an enemy in Christ's name. And all of these are great virtues but what if I should discover. That the least among them all, the purest of the beggars,the most impudent of all the offenders that these all are in me and I myself stand in need of my own kindness that I myself are in need of my own kindness that I myself am the enemy that must be loved? What then?" take sometime and understand what you've just read.
Psychologists say that we form opinions of ourselves early in our lives.and our opinions are developed from both positive and negative experiences by others. Comments about us or by our perception of ourselves our society has given us role models in movie stars,fashion models we compare ourselves by world standards. Photo shop to enhance your beauty,hours of make up sessions to hide ourselves because we feel inadequate, plastic surgery which in most occasions ends up botched. Yet the world cannot maintain its own standards of beauty what we have perceived as beauty is an illusion. A facade! Yet we try attain it because we look at. Our selves through the eyes of a secular society,not through the eyes of our loving creator.
The truth is you cannot be happy nor get where you want to be until you accept your self as who you really are flaws and all and that's something you will deal with for the rest of your life until look at yourself in the mirror and say
"I am beautiful inside and out I love me for who I am and I Would not want to be anyone else I am a diamond in the ruff and I accept myself for who I am and what I am not."
Our insecurities manifest themselves in many forms,inferiority,inadequacy,guilt,rejection, and un worthiness . these feelings manifest into characteristics
That are undesirable they breed contempt, jealousy,gossip,hatred,self harm, anger issues and even hatred all these things are the reasons we fail to appreciate who we are.love ourselves.
Because we can't fool ourselves no amount of makeup can make you forget your inner struggles and all of this is something, I have dealt with maybe not as a wider scale as you, but you might be surprised.
when I began walking down a path that I knew I was destined to walk not based on earthly standards but standards I knew were acceptable to all were realistic where a path that would please my creator,my mentor,myself where I don't have to throw myself under a bus to be happy, but would be willing to do and still look myself in the mirror and still be pleased just as God was pleased When he created me to do things no body else could do because we all have a purpose which is to benefit the greater good.
Sometimes we have to stop seeing ourselves through the unrealistic eyes of society but through the accepting,loving and fulfilling eyes of our creator and allow him to guide us down a path that he is in control of that way we won't have to rely on our own understanding for we fall short.
Ever since I discovered what I love doing and I accepted myself for who I am and what I am not living my life feels more fulfilling it's not any easier but I know I am at peace with myself and I am free to live a life I choose because I know there's more to life then the complex things of this earth
