LONELINESS DOESNT COME FROM HAVING NOBODY AROUND. IT COMES FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE THE THINGS THAT REALLY MATTER
That by the time it gets to the end of the day you just get into bed and feel completely drained. You wonder what's the point of life! Endless torture! a game where you loose more than you win...
As you go through the waves and the voice in your head just keeps pounding you with even more negatively. You cry out for help but nobody can truly understand what your going through.
You want to scream that your drowning but you can't. Or even when you choose to ask for help you realise there's only so much anyone can do for you because everyone is fighting their own battles.
Or even when you are constantly there for people but no body resceprocates it back to you or in some cases people see you as a place of release .where they dump their pain all on you find peace and leave the weight on your shoulders.
It becomes clear that although we have friends who care ,family who love us and even careers that satisfy our needs and wants. You still can't help but still alone!
In those moments you wonder what life really is supposed to be about because everything you thought it was supposed to be really isn't what it's playing out to be and you wonder how can you deal with it.
I read a quote that said ,"The quicker you accept things as they are the sooner you will discover peace."
It resonates with me because I finally understood what it meant. Denial means resistance and just as the word suggest you are fighting /resisting what is occuring naturally. You got to exactly where you are based on the choices you have made. Both willingly and unwillingly.
Your situation will not change because you don't agree with it . It will only change when you make the changes necessary .
Before you can do that you have to sit in silence with yourself Listen to all the thoughts racing in your stillness and then silence the voices that bring you sadness, the voices that cause the resistance. Remove the fear and do what is natural without resistance.
That's why after a good cry you find peace because you have released and are no longer in resistance . You have accepted.
Live, love, laugh ,learn and never stop dreaming because dreams do come true. Ask anyone that refused to give up
